"INNERLMNT" as a moniker only applies to the videos that I made starting from June 15, 2021 to the present, however my journey on YouTube is much, much longer and full of thorns and stepping stones. I've gone by many nicknames - "arberlezi" (my own name), "GumballFallsFan", "evolve330", "CostinTea", even "fallbackintoreality" to a small select few. Most of you aren't expected to know about this nuance and backstory, but there is a non-zero chance you've seen my stuff before visiting my abode under this name.
If you are one of the maybe 4,000 people who watched my videos, or even one of the 2 million views on my stuff - you may be wondering where my stuff is. The answer is that I decided to delist a bunch of my videos from my old channel. Yes, I'm not proud of the person I was from 2013-2020 - it's okay to know that because I don't know a lot of people who would be proud of themselves during their formative and childish years. Nevertheless, I know that my videos catered to some sort of an audience, and at one point, myself. So I can't bring myself to private my videos entirely like others might do. But if someone wants to seek them out? Then you are well within your right to seek them out, comment on them, like them, share them. They are part of history and worth telling the story of. Simply understand that the videos aren't a promise of what's to come with my content. I very much promise nothing in regards to the genre, schedule, type or ideas of videos to come, and certainly not on the old evolve330 channel. I don't upload there anymore!
That being said, I haven't kept every piece of that history. There are very rare situations even I wouldn't keep to the public and that I wouldn't really lay my eyes on again. I may only privatize a video for any one of these reasons:
- someone is irreversibly deadnamed in the video
- the video implies a romantic relationship that I am no longer in
- I overshared personal information that might endanger my peers' privacy
- the video has personal traumatic associations
- I was kind of an asshole in the video and it no longer fundamentally represents me as a person
My previous YouTube channel, "evolve330" has all of my currently available work organized in playlists, handy for you to watch. Sadly I have deleted videos from before 2013 before I thought to archive as much of my stuff as possible, so this is the best thing I can possibly offer. I hope you enjoy what part of my history I have given you. Thank you for your understanding.